Info, Advice, Help

I shared some very personal information yesterday, which is hard to do in person, sometimes even hard online. Someone is always struggling with something that is invisible. Whether it be Depression, Anxiety, Gender Dysphoria, etc. We, as human beings, should be there for one another, give a guiding hand, or a supporting shoulder, for help. Just because you may not think you can, you can help so many people, even with just a smile, common curtesy, just small gestures of kindness. You don’t have to have money to help someone. I’m here to say I’m here for you all, whether it be to listen to your problems, give some advice, etc. I also would like to ask people for the same. If you see something I post, and it seems inaccurate, or you feel like you can help me with the situation I seem to be in, please do. Just leave a comment here, or email me @ calypso_rayne@live.com.

Walk A Mile in My Shoes

Sometimes, emotions are overbearing, too over-cumbersome. Some people can handle them day to day. Even I manage to hold it together, most days... and then the other days, oh the other days. I have times where I find it hard to get out of bed. My mind tells me I should just stay in bed, the world can go on without my presence. Depression covers me like a wet blanket, so heavy and overwhelming. A lot of the time I don't understand why I feel the way I do. Why am I crying? Why can't I get out and spend time with friends and family? Then come the anxiety attacks. No one has talked to me, or responded to that last text. Did I do something wrong? Did I upset someone unintentionally? I'm going to lose them forever. They don't love me. They don't care about me. My diagnosis has to be wrong, I can't have PTSD. I must be BiPolar or Schizophrenic, that runs in my family. Are the doctors wrong? Should I even went to something I won't be able to afford? Should I take the medication? Is it really working? All these questions I keep asking myself. On the outside, you wouldn't know what I'm suffering, or that I'm suffering at all. I give off a happy "vibe" and try and remain outward positive. I work hard at making others happy, or getting them to laugh. I smile all the time, but most of the time they are lies. I do need help, and I wish to accept it, but is it worth it? Will it really work?